Thursday, October 23, 2008

The Confession of St. Patrick

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Title: The Confession of St. Patrick
Creator(s): Patrick. St. (c. 390-c. 461
Rights: Public Domain
CCEL Subjects: All
LC Call no: BR1720.P26A3
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Christianity

Biography
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The "Confessio" of Saint Patrick

From [1]The Robot Wisdom Pages
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1. I, Patrick, a sinner, a most simple countryman, the least of all
the faithful and most contemptible to many, had for father the deacon
Calpurnius, son of the late Potitus, a priest, of the settlement
[vicus] of Bannavem Taburniae; he had a small villa nearby where I was
taken captive. I was at that time about sixteen years of age. I did
not, indeed, know the true God; and I was taken into captivity in
Ireland with many thousands of people, according to our deserts, for
quite drawn away from God, we did not keep his precepts, nor were we
obedient to our priests who used to remind us of our salvation. And
the Lord brought down on us the fury of his being and scattered us
among many nations, even to the ends of the earth, where I, in my
smallness, am now to be found among foreigners.

2. And there the Lord opened my mind to an awareness of my unbelief,
in order that, even so late, I might remember my transgressions and
turn with all my heart to the Lord my God, who had regard for my
insignificance and pitied my youth and ignorance. And he watched over
me before I knew him, and before I learned sense or even distinguished
between good and evil, and he protected me, and consoled me as a
father would his son.

3. Therefore, indeed, I cannot keep silent, nor would it be proper, so
many favours and graces has the Lord deigned to bestow on me in the
land of my captivity. For after chastisement from God, and recognizing
him, our way to repay him is to exalt him and confess his wonders
before every nation under heaven.

4. For there is no other God, nor ever was before, nor shall be
hereafter, but God the Father, unbegotten and without beginning, in
whom all things began, whose are all things, as we have been taught;
and his son Jesus Christ, who manifestly always existed with the
Father, before the beginning of time in the spirit with the Father,
indescribably begotten before all things, and all things visible and
invisible were made by him. He was made man, conquered death and was
received into Heaven, to the Father who gave him all power over every
name in Heaven and on Earth and in Hell, so that every tongue should
confess that Jesus Christ is Lord and God, in whom we believe. And we
look to his imminent coming again, the judge of the living and the
dead, who will render to each according to his deeds. And he poured
out his Holy Spirit on us in abundance, the gift and pledge of
immortality, which makes the believers and the obedient into sons of
God and co-heirs of Christ who is revealed, and we worship one God in
the Trinity of holy name.

5. He himself said through the prophet: `Call upon me in the day of'
trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me.' And again: `It
is right to reveal and publish abroad the works of God.'

6. I am imperfect in many things, nevertheless I want my brethren and
kinsfolk to know my nature so that they may be able to perceive my
soul's desire.

7. I am not ignorant of what is said of my Lord in the Psalm: `You
destroy those who speak a lie.' And again: `A lying mouth deals death
to the soul.' And likewise the Lord says in the Gospel: `On the day of
judgment men shall render account for every idle word they utter.'

8. So it is that I should mightily fear, with terror and trembling,
this judgment on the day when no one shall be able to steal away or
hide, but each and all shall render account for even our smallest sins
before the judgment seat of Christ the Lord.
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9. And therefore for some time I have thought of writing, but I have
hesitated until now, for truly, I feared to expose myself to the
criticism of men, because I have not studied like others, who have
assimilated both Law and the Holy Scriptures equally and have never
changed their idiom since their infancy, but instead were always
learning it increasingly, to perfection, while my idiom and language
have been translated into a foreign tongue. So it is easy to prove
from a sample of my writing, my ability in rhetoric and the extent of
my preparation and knowledge, for as it is said, `wisdom shall be
recognized in speech, and in understanding, and in knowledge and in
the learning of truth.'

10. But why make excuses close to the truth, especially when now I am
presuming to try to grasp in my old age what I did not gain in my
youth because my sins prevented me from making what I had read my own?
But who will believe me, even though I should say it again? A young
man, almost a beardless boy, I was taken captive before I knew what I
should desire and what I should shun. So, consequently, today I feel
ashamed and I am mightily afraid to expose my ignorance, because,
[not] eloquent, with a small vocabulary, I am unable to explain as the
spirit is eager to do and as the soul and the mind indicate.

11. But had it been given to me as to others, in gratitude I should
not have kept silent, and if it should appear that I put myself before
others, with my ignorance and my slower speech, in truth, it is
written: `The tongue of the stammerers shall speak rapidly and
distinctly.' How much harder must we try to attain it, we of whom it
is said: `You are an epistle of Christ in greeting to the ends of the
earth ... written on your hearts, not with ink but with the Spirit of
the living God.' And again, the Spirit witnessed that the rustic life
was created by the Most High.

12. I am, then, first of all, countryfied, an exile, evidently
unlearned, one who is not able to see into the future, but I know for
certain, that before I was humbled I was like a stone lying in deep
mire, and he that is mighty came and in his mercy raised me up and,
indeed, lifted me high up and placed me on top of the wall. And from
there I ought to shout out in gratitude to the Lord for his great
favours in this world and for ever, that the mind of man cannot
measure.

13. Therefore be amazed, you great and small who fear God, and you men
of God, eloquent speakers, listen and contemplate. Who was it summoned
me, a fool, from the midst of those who appear wise and learned in the
law and powerful in rhetoric and in all things? Me, truly wretched in
this world, he inspired before others that I could be--if I
would--such a one who, with fear and reverence, and faithfully,
without complaint, would come to the people to whom the love of Christ
brought me and gave me in my lifetime, if I should be worthy, to serve
them truly and with humility.

14. According, therefore, to the measure of one's faith in the
Trinity, one should proceed without holding back from danger to make
known the gift of God and everlasting consolation, to spread God's
name everywhere with confidence and without fear, in order to leave
behind, after my death, foundations for my brethren and sons whom I
baptized in the Lord in so many thousands.

15. And I was not worthy, nor was I such that the Lord should grant
his humble servant this, that after hardships and such great trials,
after captivity, after many years, he should give me so much favour in
these people, a thing which in the time of my youth I neither hoped
for nor imagined.
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16. But after I reached Ireland I used to pasture the flock each day
and I used to pray many times a day. More and more did the love of
God, and my fear of him and faith increase, and my spirit was moved so
that in a day [I said] from one up to a hundred prayers, and in the
night a like number; besides I used to stay out in the forests and on
the mountain and I would wake up before daylight to pray in the snow,
in icy coldness, in rain, and I used to feel neither ill nor any
slothfulness, because, as I now see, the Spirit was burning in me at
that time.
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17. And it was there of course that one night in my sleep I heard a
voice saying to me: `You do well to fast: soon you will depart for
your home country.' And again, a very short time later, there was a
voice prophesying: `Behold, your ship is ready.' And it was not close
by, but, as it happened, two hundred miles away, where I had never
been nor knew any person. And shortly thereafter I turned about and
fled from the man with whom I had been for six years, and I came, by
the power of God who directed my route to advantage (and I was afraid
of nothing), until I reached that ship.

18. And on the same day that I arrived, the ship was setting out from
the place, and I said that I had the wherewithal to sail with them;
and the steersman was displeased and replied in anger, sharply: `By no
means attempt to go with us.' Hearing this I left them to go to the
hut where I was staying, and on the way I began to pray, and before
the prayer was finished I heard one of them shouting loudly after me:
`Come quickly because the men are calling you.' And immediately I went
back to them and they started to say to me: `Come, because we are
admitting you out of good faith; make friendship with us in any way
you wish.' (And so, on that day, I refused to suck the breasts of
these men from fear of God, but nevertheless I had hopes that they
would come to faith in Jesus Christ, because they were barbarians.)
And for this I continued with them, and forthwith we put to sea.

19. And after three days we reached land, and for twenty-eight days
journeyed through uninhabited country, and the food ran out and hunger
overtook them; and one day the steersman began saying: `Why is it,
Christian? You say your God is great and all-powerful; then why can
you not pray for us? For we may perish of hunger; it is unlikely
indeed that we shall ever see another human being.' In fact, I said to
them, confidently: `Be converted by faith with all your heart to my
Lord God, because nothing is impossible for him, so that today he will
send food for you on your road, until you be sated, because everywhere
he abounds.' And with God's help this came to pass; and behold, a herd
of swine appeared on the road before our eyes, and they slew many of
them, and remained there for two nights, and the were full of their
meat and well restored, for many of them had fainted and would
otherwise have been left half dead by the wayside. And after this they
gave the utmost thanks to God, and I was esteemed in their eyes, and
from that day they had food abundantly. They discovered wild honey,
besides, and they offered a share to me, and one of them said: `It is
a sacrifice.' Thanks be to God, I tasted none of it.

20. The very same night while I was sleeping Satan attacked me
violently, as I will remember as long as I shall be in this body; and
there fell on top of me as it were, a huge rock, and not one of my
members had any force. But from whence did it come to me, ignorant in
the spirit, to call upon `Helias'? And meanwhile I saw the sun rising
in the sky, and while I was crying out `Helias, Helias' with all my
might, lo, the brilliance of that sun fell upon me and immediately
shook me free of all the weight; and I believe that I was aided by
Christ my Lord, and that his Spirit then was crying out for me, and I
hope that it will be so in the day of my affliction, just as it says
in the Gospel: `In that hour', the Lord declares, `it is not you who
speaks but the Spirit of your Father speaking in you.'

21. And a second time, after many years, I was taken captive. On the
first night I accordingly remained with my captors, but I heard a
divine prophecy, saying to me: `You shall be with them for two
months.' So it happened. On the sixtieth night the Lord delivered me
from their hands.

22. On the journey he provided us with food and fire and dry weather
every day, until on the tenth day we came upon people. As I mentioned
above, we had journeyed through an unpopulated country for
twenty-eight days, and in fact the night that we came upon people we
had no food.
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23. And after a few years I was again in Britain with my parents
[kinsfolk], and the welcomed me as a son, and asked me, in faith, that
after the great tribulations I had endured I should not go an where
else away from them. And, of course, there, in a vision of the night,
I saw a man whose name was Victoricus coming as it from Ireland with
innumerable letters, and he gave me one of them, and I read the
beginning of the letter: `The Voice of the Irish', and as I was
reading the beginning of the letter I seemed at that moment to hear
the voice of those who were beside the forest of Foclut which is near
the western sea, and the were crying as if with one voice: `We beg
you, holy youth, that you shall come and shall walk again among us.'
And I was stung intensely in my heart so that I could read no more,
and thus I awoke. Thanks be to God, because after so many ears the
Lord bestowed on them according to their cry.
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24. And another night--God knows, I do not, whether within me or
beside me--... most words + ... + which I heard and could not
understand, except at the end of the speech it was represented thus:
`He who gave his life for you, he it is who speaks within you.' And
thus I awoke, joyful.

25. And on a second occasion I saw Him praying within me, and I was as
it were, inside my own body , and I heard Him above me--that is, above
my inner self. He was praying powerfully with sighs. And in the course
of this I was astonished and wondering, and I pondered who it could be
who was praying within me. But at the end of the prayer it was
revealed to me that it was the Spirit. And so I awoke and remembered
the Apostle's words: `Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness;
for we know not how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit Himself
intercedes for us with sighs too deep for utterance.' And again: 'The
Lord our advocate intercedes for us.'

26. And then I was attacked by a goodly number of my elders, who
[brought up] my sins against my arduous episcopate. That day in
particular I was mightily upset, and might have fallen here and for
ever; but the Lord generously spared me, a convert, and an alien, for
his name's sake, and he came powerfully to my assistance in that state
of being trampled down. I pray God that it shall not be held against
them as a sin that I fell truly into disgrace and scandal.
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27. They brought up against me after thirty years an occurrence I had
confessed before becoming a deacon. On account of the anxiety in my
sorrowful mind, I laid before my close friend what I had perpetrated
on a day--nay, rather in one hour--in my boyhood because I was not yet
proof against sin. God knows--I do not--whether I was fifteen years
old at the time, and I did not then believe in the living God, nor had
I believed, since my infancy; but I remained in death and unbelief
until I was severely rebuked, and in truth I was humbled every day by
hunger and nakedness.

28. On the other hand, I did not proceed to Ireland of my own accord
until I was almost giving up, but through this I was corrected by the
Lord, and he prepared me so that today I should be what was once far
from me, in order that I should have the care of--or rather, I should
be concerned for--the salvation of others, when at that time, still, I
was only concerned for myself.

29. Therefore, on that day when I was rebuked, as I have just
mentioned, I saw in a vision of the night a document before my face,
without honour, and meanwhile I heard a divine prophecy, saying to me:
`We have seen with displeasure the face of the chosen one divested of
[his good] name.' And he did not say `You have seen with displeasure',
but `We have seen with displeasure' (as if He included Himself) . He
said then: `He who touches you, touches the apple of my eye.'

30. For that reason, I give thanks to him who strengthened me in all
things, so that I should not be hindered in my setting out and also in
my work which I was taught by Christ my Lord; but more, from that
state of affairs I felt, within me, no little courage, and vindicated
my faith before God and man.

31. Hence, therefore, I say boldly that my conscience is clear now and
hereafter. God is my witness that I have not lied in these words to
you.

32. But rather, I am grieved for my very close friend, that because of
him we deserved to hear such a prophecy. The one to whom I entrusted
my soul! And I found out from a goodly number of brethren, before the
case was made in my defence (in which I did not take part, nor was I
in Britain, nor was it pleaded by me), that in my absence he would
fight in my behalf. Besides, he told me himself: `See, the rank of
bishop goes to you'--of which I was not worthy. But how did it come to
him, shortly afterwards, to disgrace me publicly, in the presence of
all, good and bad, because previously, gladly and of his own free
will, he pardoned me, as did the Lord, who is greater than all?

33. I have said enough. But all the same, I ought not to conceal God's
gift which he lavished on us in the land of my captivity, for then I
sought him resolutely, and I found him there, and he preserved me from
all evils (as I believe) through the in-dwelling of his Spirit, which
works in me to this day. Again, boldly, but God knows, if this had
been made known to me by man, I might, perhaps, have kept silent for
the love of Christ.

34. Thus I give untiring thanks to God who kept me faithful in the day
of my temptation, so that today I may confidently over my soul as a
living sacrifice for Christ my Lord; who am I, Lord? or, rather, what
is my calling? that you appeared to me in so great a divine quality,
so that today among the barbarians I might constantly exalt and
magnify your name in whatever place I should be, and not only in good
fortune, but even in affliction? So that whatever befalls me, be it
good or bad, I should accept it equally, and give thanks always to God
who revealed to me that I might trust in him, implicitly and forever,
and who will encourage me so that, ignorant, and in the last days, I
may dare to undertake so devout and so wonderful a work; so that I
might imitate one of those whom, once, long ago, the Lord already
pre-ordained to be heralds of his Gospel to witness to all peoples to
the ends of the earth. So are we seeing, and so it is fulfilled;
behold, we are witnesses because the Gospel has been preached as far
as the places beyond which no man lives.

35. But it is tedious to describe in detail all my labours one by one.
I will tell briefly how most holy God frequently delivered me, from
slavery, and from the twelve trials with which my soul was threatened,
from man traps as well, and from things I am not able to put into
words. I would not cause offence to readers, but I have God as witness
who knew all things even before they happened, that, though I was a
poor ignorant waif, still he gave me abundant warnings through divine
prophecy.

36. Whence came to me this wisdom which was not my own, I who neither
knew the number of days nor had knowledge of God? Whence came the so
great and so healthful gift of knowing or rather loving God, though I
should lose homeland and family.

37. And many gifts were offered to me with weeping and tears, and I
offended them [the donors], and also went against the wishes of a good
number of my elders; but guided by God, I neither agreed with them nor
deferred to them, not by my own grace but by God who is victorious in
me and withstands them all, so that I might come to the Irish people
to preach the Gospel and endure insults from unbelievers; that I might
hear scandal of my travels, and endure man persecutions to the extent
of prison; and so that I might give up my free birthright for the
advantage of others, and if I should be worthy, I am ready [to give]
even m life without. hesitation; and most willingly for His name. And
I choose to devote it to him even unto death, if God grant it to me.

38. I am greatly God's debtor, because he granted me so much grace,
that through me many people would be reborn in God, and soon a after
confirmed, and that clergy would be ordained everywhere for them, the
masses lately come to belief, whom the Lord drew from the ends of the
earth, just as he once promised through his prophets: `To you shall
the nations come from the ends of the earth, and shall say, Our
fathers have inherited naught hut lies, worthless things in which
there is no profit.' And again: `I have set you to be a light for the
Gentiles that you may bring salvation to the uttermost ends of' the
earth.'

39. And I wish to wait then for his promise which is never
unfulfilled, just as it is promised in the Gospel: `Many shall come
from east and west and shall sit at table with Abraham and Isaac and
Jacob.' Just as we believe that believers will come from all the
world.

40. So for that reason one should, in fact, fish well and diligently,
just as the Lord foretells and teaches, saying, `Follow me, and I will
make you fishers of men,' and again through the prophets: `Behold, I
am sending forth many fishers and hunters, says the Lord,' et cetera.
So it behoved us to spread our nets, that a vast multitude and throng
might be caught for God, and so there might be clergy everywhere who
baptized and exhorted a needy and desirous people. Just as the Lord
says in the Gospel, admonishing and instructing: `Go therefore and
make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the
Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe
all that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always to the end
of time.' And again he says: `Go forth into the world and preach the
Gospel to all creation. He who believes and is baptized shall be
saved; but he who does not believe shall be condemned.' And again:
`This Gospel of the Kingdom shall be preached throughout the whole
world as a witness to all nations; and then the end of the world shall
come.' And likewise the Lord foretells through the prophet: `And it
shall come to pass in the last days (sayeth the Lord) that I will pour
out my spirit upon all flesh, and your sons and daughters shall
prophesy, and your young men shall see visions and your old men shall
dream dreams; yea, and on my menservants and my maidservants in those
days I will pour out my Spirit and they shall prophesy.' And in Hosea
he says: `Those who are not my people I will call my people, and those
not beloved I will call my beloved, and in the very place where it was
said to them, You are not my people, they will be called 'Sons of the
living God'.
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41. So, how is it that in Ireland, where they never had any knowledge
of God but, always, until now, cherished idols and unclean things,
they are lately become a people of the Lord, and are called children
of God; the sons of. the Irish [Scotti] and the daughters of the
chieftains are to be seen as monks and virgins of Christ.
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42. And there was, besides, a most beautiful, blessed, native-born
noble Irish [Scotta] woman of adult age whom I baptized; and a few
days later she had reason to come to us to intimate that she had
received a prophecy from a divine messenger [who] advised her that she
should become a virgin of Christ and she would draw nearer to God.
Thanks be to God, six days from then, opportunely and most eagerly,
she took the course that all virgins of God take, not with their
fathers' consent but enduring the persecutions and deceitful
hindrances of their parents. Notwithstanding that, their number
increases, (we do not know the number of them that are so reborn)
besides the widows, and those who practise self-denial. Those who are
kept in slavery suffer the most. They endure terrors and constant
threats, but the Lord has given grace to many of his handmaidens, for
even though they are forbidden to do so, still they resolutely follow
his example.

43. So it is that even if I should wish to separate from them in order
to go to Britain, and most willingly was I prepared to go to my
homeland and kinsfolk--and not only there, but as far as Gaul to visit
the brethren there, so that I might see the faces of the holy ones of
my Lord, God knows how strongly I desired this--I am bound by the
Spirit, who witnessed to me that if I did so he would mark me out as
guilty, and I fear to waste the labour that I began, and not I, but
Christ the Lord, who commanded me to come to be with them for the rest
of my life, if the Lord shall will it and shield me from every evil,
so that I may not sin before him.

44. So I hope that I did as I ought, but I do not trust myself as long
as I am in this mortal body, for he is strong who strives daily to
turn me away from the faith and true holiness to which I aspire until
the end of my life for Christ my Lord, but the hostile flesh is always
dragging one down to death, that is, to unlawful attractions. And I
know in part why I did not lead a perfect life like other believers,
but I confess to my Lord and do not blush in his sight, because I am
not lying; from the time when I came to know him in my youth, the love
of God and fear of him increased in me, and right up until now, by
God's favour, I have kept the faith.

45. What is more, let anyone laugh and taunt if he so wishes. I am not
keeping silent, nor am I hiding the signs and wonders that were shown
to me by the Lord many years before they happened, [he] who knew
everything, even before the beginning of time.

46. Thus, I should give thanks unceasingly to God, who frequently
forgave my folly and my negligence, in more than one instance so as
not to be violently angry with me, who am placed as his helper, and I
did not easily assent to what had been revealed to me, as the Spirit
was urging; and the Lord took pity on me thousands upon thousands of
times, because he saw within me that I was prepared, but that I was
ignorant of what to do in view of my situation; because many were
trying to prevent this mission. They were talking among themselves
behind my back, and saying: `Why is this fellow throwing himself into
danger among enemies who know not God?' Not from malice, but having no
liking for it; likewise, as I myself can testify, they perceived my
rusticity. And I was not quick to recognize the grace that was then in
me; I now know that I should have done so earlier.

47. Now I have put it frankly to my brethren and co-workers, who have
believed me because of what I have foretold and still foretell to
strengthen and reinforce your faith. I wish only that you, too, would
make greater and better efforts. This will be my pride, for `a wise
son makes a proud father'.

48. You know, as God does, how I went about among you from my youth in
the faith of truth and in sincerity of heart. As well as to the
heathen among whom I live, I have shown them trust and always show
them trust. God knows I did not cheat any one of them, nor consider
it, for the sake of God and his Church, lest I arouse them and [bring
about] persecution for them and for all of us, and lest the Lord's
name be blasphemed because of me, for it is written: `Woe to the men
through whom the name of the Lord is blasphemed.'

49. For even though I am ignorant in all things, nevertheless I
attempted to safeguard some and myself also. And I gave back again to
my Christian brethren and the virgins of Christ and the holy women the
small unasked for gifts that they used to give me or some of their
ornaments which they used to throw on the altar. And they would be
offended with me because I did this. But in the hope of eternity, I
safeguarded myself carefully in all things, so that they might not
cheat me of my office of service on any pretext of dishonesty, and so
that I should not in the smallest way provide any occasion for
defamation or disparagement on the part of unbelievers.

50. What is more, when I baptized so many thousands of people, did I
hope for even half a jot from any of them? [If so] Tell me, and I will
give it back to you. And when the Lord ordained clergy everywhere by
my humble means, and I freely conferred office on them, if I asked any
of them anywhere even for the price of one shoe, say so to my face and
I will give it back.

51. More, I spent for you so that they would receive me. And I went
about among you, and everywhere for your sake, in danger, and as far
as the outermost regions beyond which no one lived, and where no one
had ever penetrated before, to baptize or to ordain clergy or to
confirm people. Conscientiously and gladly I did all this work by
God's gift for your salvation.

52. From time to time I gave rewards to the kings, as well as making
payments to their sons who travel with me; notwithstanding which, they
seized me with my companions, and that day most avidly desired to kill
me. But my time had not yet come. They plundered everything they found
on us anyway, and fettered me in irons; and on the fourteenth day the
Lord freed me from their power, and whatever they had of ours was
given back to us for the sake of God on account of the indispensable
friends whom we had made before.

53. Also you know from experience how much I was paying to those who
were administering justice in all the regions, which I visited often.
I estimate truly that I distributed to them not less than the price of
fifteen men, in order that you should enjoy my company and I enjoy
yours, always, in God. I do not regret this nor do I regard it as
enough. I am paying out still and I shall pay out more. The Lord has
the power to grant me that I may soon spend my own self, for your
souls.

54. Behold, I call on God as my witness upon my soul that I am not
lying; nor would I write to you for it to be an occasion for flattery
or selfishness, nor hoping for honour from any one of you. Sufficient
is the honour which is not yet seen, but in which the heart has
confidence. He who made the promise is faithful; he never lies.

55. But I see that even here and now, I have been exalted beyond
measure by the Lord, and I was not worthy that he should grant me
this, while I know most certainly that poverty and failure suit me
better than wealth and delight (but Christ the Lord was poor for our
sakes; I certainly am wretched and unfortunate; even if I wanted
wealth I have no resources, nor is it my own estimation of myself, for
daily I expect to be murdered or betrayed or reduced to slavery if the
occasion arises. But I fear nothing, because of the promises of
Heaven; for I have cast myself into the hands of Almighty God, who
reigns everywhere. As the prophet says: `Cast your burden on the Lord
and he will sustain you.'

56. Behold now I commend my soul to God who is most faithful and for
whom I perform my mission in obscurity, but he is no respecter of
persons and he chose me for this service that I might be one of the
least of his ministers.

57. For which reason I should make return for all that he returns me.
But what should I say, or what should I promise to my Lord, for I,
alone, can do nothing unless he himself vouchsafe it to me. But let
him search my heart and [my] nature, for I crave enough for it, even
too much, and I am ready for him to grant me that I drink of his
chalice, as he has granted to others who love him.

58. Therefore may it never befall me to be separated by my God from
his people whom he has won in this most remote land. I pray God that
he gives me perseverance, and that he will deign that I should be a
faithful witness for his sake right up to the time of my passing.

59. And if at any time I managed anything of good for the sake of my
God whom I love, I beg of him that he grant it to me to shed my blood
for his name with proselytes and captives, even should I be left
unburied, or even were my wretched body to be torn limb from limb by
dogs or savage beasts, or were it to be devoured by the birds of the
air, I think, most surely, were this to have happened to me, I had
saved both my soul and my body. For beyond any doubt on that day we
shall rise again in the brightness of the sun, that is, in the glory
of Christ Jesus our Redeemer, as children of the living God and
co-heirs of Christ, made in his image; for we shall reign through him
and for him and in him.

60. For the sun we see rises each day for us at [his] command, but it
will never reign, neither will its splendour last, but all who worship
it will come wretchedly to punishment. We, on the other hand, shall
not die, who believe in and worship the true sun, Christ, who will
never die, no more shall he die who has done Christ's will, but will
abide for ever just as Christ abides for ever, who reigns with God the
Father Almighty and with the Holy Spirit before the beginning of time
and now and for ever and ever. Amen.

61. Behold over and over again I would briefly set out the words of my
confession. I testify in truthfulness and gladness of heart before God
and his holy angels that I never had any reason, except the Gospel and
his promises, ever to have returned to that nation from which I had
previously escaped with difficulty.
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62. But I entreat those who believe in and fear God, whoever deigns to
examine or receive this document composed by the obviously unlearned
sinner Patrick in Ireland, that nobody shall ever ascribe to my
ignorance any trivial thing that I achieved or may have expounded that
was pleasing to God, but accept and truly believe that it would have
been the gift of God. And this is my confession before I die.
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References

1. http://www.robotwisdom.com/